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04 February 2009 @ 01:54 am
I'm sure...  

i am married to an amazing man. he is my best friend, my lover, my companion.
he's been gone for months.
i found someone i adore, and i invited him to my place for... fun.
and i'm scared because i don't feel guilty or wrong, though i know i should.
it's awful. and i'm full of self hate, anger, and loneliness, but not guilt. not anything that i thought i should feel. maybe it will change after it has happened.
Current Mood: discontentdiscontent
merry868merry868 on March 7th, 2010 07:04 pm (UTC)
I see how it must be really tough to have not seen your husband in months, but think about it: If you were really in love with him and knew that there was no one else for you and really felt strong about your relationship, then you would have stoppped yourself from being with the other guy. Also, if you don't feel at least a little bit guilty, then that's a big issue in itself. I know that it will be very very difficult for you to tell your husband, but the only way to stop the situation from getting worse is to come clean about what happened. There are consequences, of course. But at least you know you did the best thing possible for the both of you in this circumstance. Take some time to plan out what you will say and remember this: The worst thing about being lied to is knowing you weren't worth the truth.