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22 March 2009 @ 06:06 pm
I have a confession... (please don't report me)  
I'm only twelve years old. Yet I feel and act older.
I'm only twelve years old, but I have a LiveJournal.
I'm only twelve years old, but I'm anorexic.
I'm only twelve years old, but I feel like I've already screwed my life up permanently.
I'm only twelve years old, but I still have clinical depression.

I am twelve years old. Just not on the inside.

(I'm sorry.)
life is not a controlled experimentlinus_lover on March 23rd, 2009 02:13 am (UTC)
I'm 23 and I know that 12 can be a hard age for everyone. Don't let anyone make you think that your age means that your problems are not real. And I know it's hard for you to see this now but things get better with time. Most of the people I know are happier now than when they were younger. You get to know yourself better everyday and the people around you become kinder and more mature. I can tell you are a long way from where you want to be but any little step is progress. "Never fall without getting up again."

xlokifoxx on March 30th, 2009 03:32 am (UTC)
Thank you so much. That's... that's really all I can say that. Just... thank you. I just wanted you to know that that helped. So much.
thatisdefined on March 28th, 2009 11:07 pm (UTC)
its okay you arn't alone.
I grew up fast & painfully as well, maybe more exptreme.

Age I first did,
10- first ciggerett/period
11- depression
12- bulemic/annorexic (lost 10 pounds in 2 weeks/first makeout/alcaholic
13- blowjobs, handjobs, pot, zanex, stealing,
14- sex

15- today I am turning my life around. I have stopped smoking, stopped drinkning as much. Got over my eating disorder for the most part & I am trying to get somewhere in life. (I want to be an author)

don't let anything tear you down, just remember it all makes you stronger than those around you. Get a hoby that makes you feel better about yourself. (Painting, writting, drawing, ect) That's what I did.

If you need someone to talk to you can talk to me anytime. I know what it's like.
xlokifoxx on March 30th, 2009 03:30 am (UTC)
Thank you. It helps when I don't feel so alone.
I actually am a writer, but sometimes even that seems to backfire a bit. Meh, I just need to stop being pessimistic and let the words help.
Thanks, fellow writer. ;)
Brittnaythinkthistime on March 30th, 2009 01:40 am (UTC)
i felt the same way, when I was 12. I was an early bloomer.
Are you getting any counseling? If not, I definitely recommend it. You are SO young.. so that means you have soo much time to turn it around. Things CAN get better. As long as you hold on.
About the anorexia... please either let someone you trust know. If you let it go long enough, you'll do soo much permanent damage t your body. How about getting a Wii and WiiFit?? :]
xlokifoxx on March 30th, 2009 03:31 am (UTC)
Thank you. All good suggestions, all things I should do. All things I'll definitely think about. ;)
Brittnaythinkthistime on March 30th, 2009 03:33 am (UTC)
You're welcome. :]